We lovers spurned by careless counterparts
Take solace knowing we are not at fault.
What little comfort, though, for broken hearts
Like ours, the hopeful souls that still exalt
Upon a pedestal a vision of
What is to us apparently enough
Sublime emotion, most unselfish love,
For some so eas’ly cast aside, rebuffed.
But revel in each other’s presence now
We will this day prescribed for lucky those
Who often don’t appreciate just how
Propitious fortune does their life compose.
We know much better than the foolish do.
Have faith that soon enough will fate pull through.
A sonnet (Shakespearean — ababcdcdefefgg rhyme scheme in iambic pentameter) I wrote for my Valentine, NN. In honor of both of us!
I had a great time this weekend, even though it’s tough staying positive sometimes, especially when you’re reminded of what it is you don’t have. MSOUL recently gave me an encouraging quote though. While it’s something I’ve been trying to convince myself of for quite some time, it’s nice to hear it from someone else all the same.
Turning in early tonight. I will try to vivify this blog a bit by updating more frequently. For now, good night, world.
Filed under: personal
For I am the sum of my experiences.
I’ve been constantly hungry lately. It’s definitely contributed to my weight gain these past several months. I think I was 140-something in August. Now I’m in the high 150s. Weak. The constant physical hunger is a pain, but I have much deeper desires to sate. I find myself motivated and restless. Confident yet frustrated. Hopeful yet pessimistic.
And always tired.
Applications have been coming along slowly and even though I had debated sending in several more, I think I’ll save the money and effort. It’s a bit late in the process anyway.
So far, I’m complete at UC Hastings, UW, UVA, Fordham, and Loyola (LA). LSAC is lagging on Northwestern (I don’t think we’re meant to be) and for seemingly no reason at all, is holding up my Davis application by not queueing up and sending my second letter of recommendation. Later on, I’ll put up a more comprehensive post listing all my potentials and hopefuls. I fear I lack the vivacity to produce any kind of analysis at this point. All I do know is that I want to minimize my debt and maximize my employment prospects — which would have been much easier to do if my GPA were higher. C’est la vie. I have to do my best with what I have.
Occasionally I entertain the idea of infamous ‘BIGLAW’, but I think when it comes down to it, I would never take it over work that is meaningful and significant, to me, if to no one else. I suppose money can serve that function for some. They’re only cheating themselves. To keep me encouraged, I’ve been reading a lot of PD and DA blogs. There are a lot of compelling stories to be told; many injustices on both sides of the system; inadequacies and shortfalls in policy. But you also have women and men who have dedicated their lives to challenging these imbalances (especially on the side of defense). I want to be a part of that stand.
May this drive never burn out.
From Orin Kerr, on the Volokh Conspiracy:
The Significance of the Flubbed Oath: To my mind, the flubbed oath at today’s inaugural teaches one important lesson: The answer to the question, “How many former editors of the Harvard Law Review does it take to administer the Presidential oath properly?” is “More than two.”
In case you missed it:
Filed under: media
“Look into your heart. Do whatever makes you happy.”
- Bob Kelso, Scrubs – Season 8 – Episode 4
Filed under: spiritual
I changed my header today. Got tired of looking at the satellite image of what has been my geographical boundary for most of my life. It has been replaced with a shot of the “Urban Light” installment at the Los Angeles County Museum of Art.
Anyhow. I’ve lost my way, so to speak, religiously, over the past several years. I can’t say I believe anything right now. I think I’ll forever be agnostic, just in the sense that we can never know with any certainty the nature of our provenance or the meaning of our existence. Yet a huge part of me wants to return to my religious tradiiton and upbringing — religion gets a bad rap in the media and in academia, but if you’ve actually been to church, you know it’s a nurturing environment full of good-hearted people. Atheists can be just as dogmatically narrow-minded. The point is there are plenty of people in the middle of the spectrum. I sort of miss the sense of sanity and discipline I had when I did go. There is one condition I have though, for attending services again: the sermons/teachings have to be based on practicality and living a good life, not on evangelizing and ’steps’ and ‘principles’ that are mostly abstract. I’m still ecumenical in my religious views. Wasn’t that Pope John Paull II’s stance as well? Good man.
I feel I have a pretty good sense of conscientiousness, socially and morally. I care about others and take steps in my own life, even if small, to further the end of social justice. And sometimes it’s hard to go about it alone.
One thing is for certain: The strongest statement you can make is with your actions.
Filed under: personal
As follows:
- Nostalgia is ridiculously powerful.
- One measure of apathy is far more devastating than heaps of ire.
- Those who deserve the least seem to get the most.
- I’m awake at 5 a.m.
- On a Saturday.
- I’ve made a resolution to go to Europe in the late spring or early summer.
I’m particularly fixated on points 2, 3, and 6.
All my timestamps since November have been incorrect, since WordPress does not automatically adjust for Daylight Savings. The inaccuracy ends here.
The following is an excellent descriptor of my mindset/approach/experience:
I know everyone’s heard the original way too many times. I promise you this one is different and worthwhile.
Filed under: school
For those who know of my graduate ambitions, I have been obsessing over Northwestern for about two years now; it’s a top 14 that looks favorably upon work experience and is known for taking ’splitters’ — people like me, with high LSAT scores and low GPAs. I even received a fee waiver from them. Yet I still have not applied. It’s not too late to do so… However, it is too late to interview. Local interviews became unavailable a long time ago (I wanted to have all my materials ready before I requested one, except I was delayed for several months because of my professors), then I hesitated again because I was reluctant to buy a plane ticket to Chicago. Now it’s too late and there are no more interviews being offered! They’re booked full all the way through the end of the process.
I’ll still apply. I doubt I’ll get in, but hey, it’s a free application.
I will track my progress once all my applications are considered complete. Thanks for tuning in!
